What If I'm Not There Yet?

 

I feel like God wants me to talk about relationships.
‎Godly ones.
‎Friendship, dating, love, commitment, purpose-driven connection… all of it.
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‎But can I be honest?
‎Omo, I don’t think I’m there yet.
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‎Sometimes I ask myself:
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❓ ‎"How can I speak when I’m still figuring myself out?"
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‎❓ "How can I teach when I still cry to God about my needs?"
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‎❓ "How can I lead others when I don’t even have something stable yet?"
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‎It’s like I want to say so much, but I hear my own inner voice whisper: "You haven't earned the right to speak."
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‎But then, in the stillness, God reminds me:
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‎"You don’t need to be perfect to speak truth. You just need to be present."
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‎God always shows up for me, even when I feel small.
‎Whenever a bill shows up or a need presses me to tears, He somehow comes through like a Father who never lets His child fall too far.
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‎Still, I wrestle with wanting more.
‎I want to earn my own money, to build something stable, to not feel like I always have to depend on someone for something.
‎I don’t want to just “survive” by miracles. I want to thrive with purpose and strategy.
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‎But I’m learning something very deep in this season:
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‎✨ Your value is not in your income.
‎✨ Your voice is not invalid because you're still becoming.
‎✨ You’re allowed to teach from the middle, not just the finish line.
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‎I may not have everything figured out,

‎But I have Jesus.

‎I have grace.

‎I have skills.

‎I have stories.

‎And I’ll keep showing up in them.

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‎To anyone else feeling like you’re not “there” yet:
‎You’re not behind. You’re in becoming.
‎Let’s grow together.
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‎With love,
‎DigitalMandy 💛